Kenneth E. Hagin
I Believe In Visions
The doctors at the Mayo Clinic said nothing could be done for me. My doctors said that the doctor who had been at the Mayo Clinic was one of the best doctors in America. And if he said nothing could be done, it would be a waste of time and money for me to make the trip to the Mayo Clinic.
So all the doctors agreed. They said there was absolutely no hope for me; I didn’t have one chance in a million of living. As far as medical science was concerned, to their knowledge, no one in my condition had ever lived past 16 years of age.
Day after day and week after week I lay on the bed of sickness, wondering what was wrong with me. I knew something was wrong with my heart, but I didn’t know exactly what it was, because the doctors didn’t tell me. Later I learned that I had two serious organic heart problems.
My body became partially paralyzed. I can remember seeing a glass of water beside my bed, wanting to drink it, and not understanding why I couldn’t get it.
“My Struggle With Mark 11:24”
I had been struggling with Mark 11:24 for a long time, but I still wasn’t any better. I told the Lord, “You said when You were on earth that ‘what things soever ye desire, when ye pray, believe that ye receive them, and ye shall have them.’ I desire to be healed, and I believe. If You were to stand here in my room and I could see You with my physical eyes and take ahold of your hand, and if You were to tell me my trouble is that I’m not believing, I would have to say that isn’t true. I am believing.”
Then a voice on the inside of me spoke so clearly it seemed as if someone had spoken audibly: “Yes, you are”“believing as far as you know, but the last clause of that verse says, ‘and ye shall have them.’”
I believed as much as I knew how to believe, but I didn’t know enough. A person cannot pray to get faith. The Bible says that faith COMES “. . . by hearing, and hearing by the Word of God” (Rom. 10:17). We need knowledge of the Word. When this light of knowledge from the Word comes, faith is automatically there.
In this moment, I saw exactly what that verse in Mark 11:24 meant. Until then I was going to wait until I was actually healed before I believed I had received my healing. I was looking at my body and testing my heartbeat to see if I had been healed. But I saw that the verse says you have to believe when you pray. The having comes after the believing. I had been reversing it. I was trying to have first and then believe second.
That is what most people do.
“I see it. I see it!” I said with joy. “I see what I’ve got to do, Lord. I’ve got to believe that my heart is well while I’m still lying here on this bed, and while my heart is not beating right. I’ve got to believe that my paralysis is gone while I’m still lying here helpless, flat on my back.
“I believe in my heart that You have heard my prayer! I believe that my heart is healed and that my paralysis is gone! I believe in my heart that I have received healing for my body!”
As I said this, the thought came to me, “You’re a pretty thing. Just look at you, claiming to be a Christian and now you’ve started lying. Don’t you know the Bible says that all liars will have their part in the lake that burneth with fire and brimstone?”
“I am not a liar,” I declared.
“Certainly you are, because you said you are healed and you’re not.”
“I didn’t say that I am healed because I feel like it,” I stated. “I’m healed because I believe it. And, devil, if you say I am not, then you are a liar. I am acting on the Word of God. If I am not healed, then Jesus is a liar. Go argue with God about it; don’t fuss with me.”
With this, the devil left me alone. Then I said, “Thank God, I’m healed.” I lifted my hands and praised God.
Momentarily, I started to feel my heart to see if it was beating normally, but I caught myself and stated that I wasn’t going by feelings but by faith. I kept saying that my heart was well. I praised the Lord in this manner for about 10 minutes.
Up and Out of Bed
“Then the Holy Spirit spoke as an inner witness on the inside of me and said, “You believe you are healed. If you are healed, then you should be up and out of that bed. Well people are up at 10:00 in the morning.”
I felt this was right, so I pushed myself up to a sitting position with my hands. Then I reached down, got hold of my feet, and swung them around to the side of the bed. I couldn’t feel them, but I could see them. Then I said that I was going to stand and walk.
The devil fought me every inch of the way. He kept telling me that I was a fool. Of course I couldn’t walk, he told me over and over again. (As long as the devil can keep us in the sense realm, he will defeat us. But if we will stay in the faith realm, we will defeat him!)”
“I got ahold of the bedpost and pulled myself up to a standing position. The room started spinning, for I had been in this bed for 16 months. I closed my eyes, wrapped my arms around the bedpost, and stood there for a few minutes. Finally I opened my eyes and everything had stopped spinning.
I declared I was healed and I was going to walk. Feeling began to return to my legs! It seemed as if two million pins were pricking me because the nerves were being reactivated. I rejoiced because it was so wonderful to have feeling back in those lifeless legs, in spite of the painful prickling sensation. After a short time, the pain left and I felt normal.
Determined now more than ever to walk, I held onto the bedpost and cautiously took a step. Then I took another. Holding onto pieces of furniture, I managed to walk around the room one time.
“I told no one of this, but the next morning I got up and did the same thing. That night I asked my mother to bring me some clothes because I was going to get up and go to the breakfast table the next morning. She was shocked, but she did as I asked. On the third morning I got out of bed, dressed myself, walked into the kitchen, and joined my family at the breakfast table. And I’ve been doing it ever since!!!!!
*ALL MINISTERS ARE ACCOUNTABLE FOR TIME INCREMENTS TO BE MET. ALL PREACHING MUST BE COMPLETED BY TWENTY MINUTES BEFORE THE TOP OF THE HOUR TO ALLOW FOR THE WORKING OF THE WORD.
**IT IS RECOMMENDED THAT BEFORE YOU PREACH YOU SPEND 30 MINUTES – SITTING IN A CHAIR – SAYING THE FOLLOWING – OUT LOUD:
*I THANK YOU LORD – ACCORDING TO 1 JOHN 2:27 – I HAVE AN UNCTION TO SPEAK. ACCORDING TO MARK 16:17-18, “WHEN I LAY HANDS ON THE SICK THEY RECOVER.” *I HAVE HEALINGS, MIRACLES, SIGNS, WONDERS, WORKING OF MIRACLES, WORD OF KNOWLEDGE AND THE GIFT OF FAITH MANIFEST THROUGH ME.
*ACCORDING TO JOHN 14:16 THE HOLY SPIRIT IS HELPING ME TO MINISTER. I DO NOT DO IT IN MY OWN STRENGTH.